I Am A Sonic Screwdriver

I really hate them times when you just sit there a miss what you had with someone, the hugs, the cuddles, the kisses, and the laughing and the stares in the eyes. And then what makes it worse is just the fact that you see them bump into them, you look at each other and you jsut stare, after a while you know what you both want, you have a long passionate hug and then you leave each other, Then you think bout it think bout what just happened and you wish that something more happened. And like, this person is just so weird, they just convey different ideas and emotions and different times, gosh how confusing people can be. But yeh, i just wish that there was more to it then just the bump in, beause i feel there definately can be more to it then just a hug and bump in. much more

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Judgement

Ahh here i go again, but seriously i really dislike people who judge others from what other people tell them, like if everyone judges someone because of what others say then this world is pretty shite. I mean that’s why people think people are for example slags when all they’vce done is fuck all. I mean people go around telling other people that aww that girl is a right slag she fcuks round with everyone, and then these people are just stupid enough to judge them from that statement and then the cycle goes on.

I mean seriously, people would say that dont happen but it happens everyday, i see and hear it with my eyes and ears and it really sickens me to see that happen. Sometimes people wonder why people hate them, like people say why does that person hate me i dont even know him/her, well the answer is most probably the fact that, that person hates you because of something someone else said about you, i mean its bad enough to tell things to other people (bad things) but its just completely worse to actually believe and then judge the person from what the other person said.

But then again i guess thats life, but also, i believe that you should jsut fucking judge people from what you experience with them, not what other people tell you or what other people experienced with them. You and yourself should judge anyone not let someone else judge that person for you. I mean, even if that is true people can change, i mean im not one of first impressions, and im sure there are lots of people out there who dont always give out the best first impression. So if people judge from first impressions you will never really know the true person who you may take a dislike into. I just think that you should give people more than 1 chance talk to them past the first impression learn to know them past the first impressions, and give them a chance and not let other peoples dislike imfluence what you do and talk to with that person

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My Appauling Self-Esteem

Ahhh goshh, dont you hate it when your self-esteem is looowww, soo loow you’re scared to do anything due to the reactions you may get, too low because your confidence is soo loww. People always say to me, “stop being so down bout yourself, stop being no negative and pessimistic”, and i just say “yes i guess”… But anywho, while that does happen i always say im gonna be more optimistic, but then i cant lool.

Ahh i guess the reason why i am like this is due the past, i mean pretend if something great happens, but then there’s this same event that is similar to a past event, if that past event sorta ended on bad terms, i just automatically think that this present event will end up the same as the past event. As well as lowering my self-esteem confidence optimisism it also just makes me have a high level of paranoia in certain situations, of course not the sorta paranoia that ghosts will come and rape me or something, but just the paranoia of something to go wrong, may not be as bad as necrophilia, but its still painful inside.

Butt well what can i doo, i wish there was something that will increase my Self-esteem cos i know if that does happen, then i could such a better person, i wouldntb e scared of a response or a reaction if i wanna help something. but i know the only way that would make me believe in myself and increase all the parts that lead to a high self-esteem would just be something extremely amazing happen to me. So when a future event is similar to the past amazing event, i will think something great will happen instead of something appauling.

Ahh but there are many other ways and not that individual one that i think would help me, i mean there’s always to try and forget and not let what other people think get to you, that’s what lowers us homosapiens self esteem the most, the response and thought of others, i mean we all want to be socially accepted it is proven that being socially accepted increase Serotonin neurotransmitter levels which is like endorphins and makes us happy :D. But i guess at a young age i was never really given such positive complments and responses only really bad ones which kinda make what i am today

Of course there is more ways then that, i mean i’ve been told and read that, i cant accept other peoples thoughts on me if i dont accept what i am myself, i am what i am and i cant change that, but i always have this shitty pessimestic view on myself, i think negatively of myself, so i will think other people will think negatively of me, i guess i gotta try my hardest to think of myself as the best, maybe be arrogant, but not stuck up my arse arrogant, just enough for me to accept what other people think,

Ahh it sure feels nice to express what you think, but aye that’s what i can put and way way more on my appauling self-esteem :D